Tuesday, November 30, 2010

2010 Victoria's Secret Fashion Show- A Recap

You know it's the beginning of the holiday season when the Victoria's Secret Fashion show airs on television. This is the only fashion show that I make sure I catch every year and this year's show did not disappoint!!! As much as I would love to feature every single outfit, that would make this blog so freaking long. I will feature the outfits that I loved the most from the show.

Before the models, I will review the performers, which were Katy Perry and Akon.

Katy Perry looked and sounded gorgeous!!! I loved the blend of blue and pink in her first outfit, when she performed "Firework." Then, when she performed during the Pink collection presentation, the yellow dress contrasted beautifully with her black hair and black boots. I loved that she did a medley of "Teenage Dream/ Hot N Cold/ California Girls." Her music is very appropriate for the youthful, colorful Pink collection!

Akon performed his single "Angel"... talk about a perfect song to feature on the show!!! It was very classy to have him in a suit while the girls walked down the runway in contrasting white outfits. It was a beautiful segment of the show and it added a classy touch!

And now.... onto the beautiful models!!!!!

I've always liked the Rocker Angel look. To have the corset shaped like a heart is way too cool and cute! I would so buy that! I also liked the dark teal wings... a bit of light and dark to the ensemble!!!

The whole segment where the models were dressed in random sports clothing... cuteness. I don't think I will ever see this colorful of a lacrosse outfit anywhere else!

Okay, my favorite flowers are roses... so when I saw this I instantly loved it! I wouldn't hesitate to wear my black bra and panties and wrap this floral arrangement around my body.

Simple lingerie and fluffy wings.... classy and elegant!

I missed this portion of the show (hey, I'm a Mom and the kiddo needed to be tucked into bed). My favorite is the pink lingerie with the pink, red, and orange wings.... what can I say? I'm a sucker for color!

These wings were just amazing.... so much that I forgot to look at the lingerie! When this model walked onstage surrounded by orange-ish trees... she looked absolutely amazing. You could tell she loved wearing this outfit; she always had a smile on her face!

A few of the ladies wore peacock themed outfits and wings... this one is my favorite. Not only did this model have beautiful wings, but to have the feathers around her waist added to the beautiful dark blue bra and panties.

Onto the best part of the show... the Pink Collection! This outfit was my FAVORITE of the night!!! It was a lot of fun, flirty, and very Rainbow Brite chic!!! It makes me want to go back to Halloween and update my costume with all the cuteness. Oh well, maybe I will repeat my costume next year and incorporate the fun and flirty side that Victoria's Secret showed off, LOL.

And that's a wrap! It was overall a very beautiful show and all of the models were absolutely gorgeous. I know what I'll be looking for the next time I go to Victoria's Secret!!!

Day 30- A Letter to Yourself, Tell Yourself EVERYTHING You Love About Yourself

Dear Casey,

You have spent many weeks working on this blog challenge, and here you are... at the final one. You've had an interesting journey writing all of these. Some days you wrote two or three of them, others took two to three days to write. But, through all of that, you have 30 pieces to look at and cherish in the future. In a way, you have gained some extra tidbits of self discovery and even surprised yourself with whom or what you ended up writing about. Please note how creative and imaginative you are, especially when you blogged about Batman letting you down... you thought outside the box with that one, and it was very entertaining!

Aside from your talents as a writer and your creativity, you have a lot of qualities about you that make you unique and loved. You blogged about your kind heart, your open mindedness, and your ability to seek out the good in people. You are very smart AND you have common sense. Many people have one or the other, but you have learned to develop both, and that's something that isn't as common as you would like to believe.

You discovered your photographic memory as a young teenager. You can recall certain events from your past and go into detail about them (like clothing certain people wore and what random conversation tidbits you talked about). This has been proven useful many times, whether it was friends from high school asking to recall certain people or figuring out how long it has been since you saw your best friend (which it's been almost 5 years since you last saw Brandon).

Your passion for life is extremely high. You have so many aspirations for the future and are always seeking out new activities and interests. When you grow old, you are going to have so many things to do to keep yourself entertained... and that's not a bad thing at all! Never forget that you are a very unique individual. You were never a follower, even though there are many things you enjoy that others do as well. There is nothing wrong with discovering something new through someone else; if you like it, then that's all that matters.

Stay true to yourself and remain the happy, optimistic person that you are!


Casey Leigh (aka. YOU!)

Monday, November 29, 2010

Day 29- Something You Hope to Change About Yourself and Why

I wrote this blog a couple weeks ago thinking I had a really great topic. It was about how I need to let go of what others think about choices in my life and do what makes me happy (with an example of what happened when I tried to get a job at Cirilla's- an adult novelty store for those that don't know). But then the holiday weekend happened. Between Thanksgiving dinner with the family, work, two baby showers, and cancelling my own birthday celebration with friends, something became very apparent to me.

I feel pretty damned lonely.

One of my newest acquaintances, whom I found on Twitter a few weeks ago, made a comment on one of Saturday's blogs about how the holidays are particularly hard when not in a relationship. He's right, especially since there are so many events, parties, family gatherings and such that bring relationship statuses to light. It's been a little over three years since my last relationship ended (yes my marriage) so the desire to be in a new one is very high for me. I've had a couple opportunities for relationships, but I've turned them down because I don't want a relationship for the sake of just being in one. That's not my style.

Now, the loneliness isn't just about the lack of a significant other in my life. I'm not one of those people who NEEDS a relationship to make my life seem meaningful (although it would be nice to have that special someone). There's my current lifestyle that gets me that way too. I sometimes feel isolated from my close friends. Some of them are married with kids and some are single with no kids. I'm the divorced one with a kid. Yes, that was my choice and I don't regret it at all, but sometimes it's difficult to be with my married friends while they are with their spouses. Or "guy hunting" with the single friends. Those friends will hook up with someone just for the "high" of momentarily attention from a stranger. I'm not one to pick up guys at bars/clubs (and vice versa) so maybe that is more of a contributing factor that watching my girl friends attempt to hook up.

My job is another example of my loneliness. I am happy to have a job and I love the people I work with, but sometimes I feel like the oddball because my coworkers are either 3-6 years younger than me or a couple decades older. There is a little bit of a generation gap with me and the younger crowd (and that became very apparent when most of them saw my Halloween costume and had NO CLUE who Rainbow Brite was). My job also has me working every Friday and Saturday night, which can be crazy as hell, dead, or a slow, steady flow of customers. Whenever I am done early on those nights and want to do something socially... I usually have a difficult time finding anyone or anything to do. So I go home and play on the Internet for the night (sometimes watching a movie or two).

So, the loneliness.... that's what I want to change about myself. I hope that decorating my house with Christmas goodness will help snap me out of it, since it always puts me in the spirit of the season. That, and I have a few upcoming social events that I'm looking forward to. Here's hoping for a merry December!

Sunday, November 28, 2010

Day 28- If You Were Pregnant or Got Someone Pregnant, What Would You Do?

*Rereads the topic of this blog*

Well, I've already made that decision!!! And his name is Truman :-)

Anyway, since I am single, dating, and am sexually active... there is the possibility that this could happen to me again. I say possibility because birth control is not 100% guaranteed to keep you from getting pregnant (abstinence is what always works). So, with that said, what would I do if I found out I was pregnant?

The first thing I would do is tell the father of the child. I am a firm believer that the man has a right to know and will never hide that from anyone. Then I would explain my intentions for the pregnancy, which is that if I choose to have sex, then I accept all responsibilities that come with it (In English: I keep the baby).

Now, depending on the relationship between the father of the child and myself will determine how involved he will be with the baby. Just because I choose to be responsible doesn't mean that he will be... and I know this through personal experience (*cough* Brian *cough*). But to dive into the "what if" scenarios will steer me away from the blog topic.

So, if I find myself needing to pee on a stick... then rest assured that I won't be walking into an abortion clinic or filling out paperwork for adoption. I love being a mother so why would I want to give up a child just because I didn't plan to have one? I mean, Truman wasn't planned and that worked out wonderfully :-)

Saturday, November 27, 2010

Dream Interpretations

I woke up this morning recalling a very disturbing sex dream. You know, one of those dreams you remember in vivid detail, but you wish that you didn't??? Yea, I shuddered when I woke up this morning. Well, it got me thinking...

I have a photographic memory (obviously). So when I recall dreams, I write them down in a journal. I figure that some of the dreams may prove useful to me someday, like when I'm writing a novel. I also like to take these dreams and use a dream interpretation website ( http://www.dreammoods.com/ ) to see what my subconscious is trying to tell me.

For example, the dream I had last night was about a male from the Rocky Horror Fishnets and Floorshows cast. I have made small talk with him but I wouldn't say I know him personally. When I looked up "sex" on the dream moods website, they had several different scenarios about sex dreams. This is what I felt that was the most appropriate for my particular dream:

To dream about sex, refers to the integration and merging of contrasting aspects of yourself. It represents psychological completion. It may indicate repressed sexual desires and your needs for physical and emotional love.

To dream that you are having sex with a stranger, represents uncertainty about what is ahead. Alternatively, the dream allows you to experiment freely without having any hang ups, emotional baggage or preconceived notions associated with a person you would know. In such a scenario, you are able to let loose and express your desires, passions and emotions.

The part that refers to my needs for physical and emotional love.... completely dead on. I haven't been in a relationship for over three years, and given the holiday weekend going on right now, it's made me really miss having that kind of connection with somebody. I know I will get there someday, with someone, I just need to learn to be patient and enjoy the time that I have now.

Dreaming about having sex with a stranger, represents uncertainty about what is ahead... another dead on statement. The cast member is considered a stranger to me, and my uncertainties about the future are on my mind a lot... not just for the interest in starting a new relationship, but where I am going to be financially, career-wise, furthering my education, and if my living situation will change. 

The part that says the dream allows you to experiment freely without having any hang ups, only about half true. As enjoyable that it is to dream about someone that you are not involved with, I am not interested AT ALL in the guy (since I would rather forget the dream altogether).

I've always found it interesting to see how certain aspects of my life reflect in my dreams. I am glad I found this particular dream interpretation website. Not only does it give me some insight, but as I mentioned before I can use it as a resource for a future novel.  For my readers, you may see more random dreams of mine, except that I will actually write down the details of those dreams. I figured that going in detail about the sex dream would be too much information to share.... LOL.

Day 27- What's the Best Thing Going for You Right Now?

The best thing that's going for me right now.... oh jeez. I have a lot of good things going on in my life: my son Truman, my close circle of friends, and my determination to get my life back on track (with school and a great job). I'd have to say what the BEST thing is right now is... my blog.

When I was in first grade,  I discovered my talent for storytelling. I was able to clearly express what was on my mind, whether I was presenting it orally or by writing it down on paper. One of my first real accomplishments was in the second grade. One of my short stories was featured in the school district's annual Young Writer's Conference. It made me happy that my story was published in the book.

My writing progressed through my grade school years, leading all the way through high school. When I was a freshman, my English teacher recommended me to the yearbook advisor to join the staff the following school year. I had never given it much thought, but once the idea was presented to me, I knew that's what I wanted to do. By the end of that school year, I had already decided that journalism was going to be my major in college.

When I was in college from 2002-2004, I had taken several classes that were writing intensive, including a Film as Literature class. The class consisted of watching movies and writing papers about them. Yes, this was the perfect class for me. It helped me realize that I could combine both passions for writing and movies into a career, like a movie columnist. Well, as life goes, I had a few curve balls thrown at me that veered me away from achieving my goals. As I have mentioned before, I am working toward getting my life back that direction.

Back in July, I had noticed a few of my friends with their own blogs. Each of them had a unique voice and after mulling over the idea for 48 hours, I found myself setting up my own blog. Wow... this is something that I should have started doing years ago! I'm glad I did it though. I am amazed at how many blogs I have written in the past four months... and how many more I have to come.  It has already opened my creativity back up, and (hopefully) soon, I will be writing my first novel and hoping that it gets published someday. My blog has helped me rediscover myself more than anything else that I've done in the past three years, especially this 30 Days of Truth blog challenge. I hope that someday, someone out there will notice my voice and possibly lead me toward achieving some of my goals. Yea, that would be awesome :-)

Friday, November 26, 2010

Day 26- Have You Ever Thought About Giving Up on Life? If So, When and Why?

Life can throw a lot of unexpected things at you. Life can also give you choices on what to do in certain situations. When it comes down to it, you as a person are the only one to make these decisions. Sometimes it's hard to do... especially when life throws you stressful situations or bad experiences. I have had to make some really difficult decisions in my life, but in the end I felt that I made the right ones and moved forward with my life.

Now, this blog topic is asking if I ever thought about giving up on life. No, I have never done that. There are way too may people and things that I care about to throw in the towel. However... I have imagined the "what if's" and came up with a very plausible scenario.

If I was still married to Brian, I could see that I would fall into a deep depression. The longer I would stay with him, the deeper it would get. I wouldn't feel motivated to do anything. I would slack off at work and eventually get fired, then not even attempt to look for a new job. I would stop trying to fight with Brian; I would lose the motivation to get fired up over an argument. The only things I would do during the day would be to either sit on a couch and sort of watch television or to just lay in bed all day. This would not be a good atmosphere for my son. My family and friends would try to help me out, but I would avoid them and reject their advice. I would cry a lot.

Then, I would think of ways to end all my pain, my suffering. But how??? Would I fill up the tub and use a razor on my wrists? Would I drink a bunch of alcohol and swallow whatever pills I could have access to? Would I take a knife to my heart? Would I even succeed in doing this???

It's a very scary thought that, given time, it could have happened. It's something that once you do it, you don't get to go back and change things. It's permanent. I may not be alive right now. My family could be completely torn apart. A lot of my friends would be in complete shock that I was the type of person to do that to myself.

Writing this blog made me a little sick to my stomach, especially when imagining the amount of pain I would be in if I cut my wrists. Life is way too precious to lose.... which is why I am happy that I appreciate life too much to consider the "easy way out."

Thursday, November 25, 2010

Day 25- The Reason You Believe You're Still Alive Today

I intend to live forever... so far, so good. Okay, I know I won't live forever... that's the sucky part about not having Greek Gods for parents. I just have to deal with mortality. *shrugs*

All joking aside, I am definately alive and kicking. I mean, I've been in a couple car accidents and walked away with some bumps and bruises. I'm not some thrill seeking daredevil that puts my life at risk for an adrenaline rush nor am I an extra cautious person that doesn't take a chance at anything exciting at life. I've been through some serious trials in life... and I couldn't have done it without certain people.

1. My Family: I can pinpoint my optimistic personality to the environment that I was raised. My family (parents, grandparents, and extended family) showed my sister and I tons of happiness. Other than when a family member passed away, I do not recall any sadness, hurt, anger, or tragedy growing up. I'm not saying those things didn't exist; I just believe that my family was very good at protecting my sister, cousins, and myself from harmful exposure.

When I was a teenager and in my twenties, my family, especially my parents, were there for me in my darkest times. My parents let my ex-husband and myself live with them for a while, rent free, to help us out with our debt. Then, when I left Brian, my son and I immediately had a home and the support we needed at that time, not to mention that they basically paid for my divorce. My family is very important to me and I know they will continue to support me in the future.

2. My Friends: What would I do without my friends? We've grown up together, experienced a lot of life's trials and tribulations, and for some of us, moved onto marriage and families. My closest girlfriends, Maria, Katrina, Jaymie, and Robin, have all been there for me, and I felt like I almost lost them all as friends when I was with my ex-husband. They all, in their own ways, tried to get me to see Brian for who he was and I wasn't listening. They stayed with me though, and were some of the first people to know when I made that choice to leave him.

My closest guy friends, Matt, TJ, Ben, Doug, and Patrick, have all contributed in their own ways to be considered some of my closest friends (all whom I knew before Brian and I have reconnected with all of them through Facebook.. except Ben. He and I always stayed connected). I am also happy that I have spent time with each of them this year, and enjoyed the company with all of them!

Then, there's my best friend, Brandon. He is the one person that helped me the most in getting myself back to the cheery, optimistic, geeky person that I am. He and I have logged hundreds of hours talking online about everything, which helped strengthen our bond tenfold in the past three years. He and I can talk about anything and everything and look out for each other, and I love that about us. Love ya Brandon :-)

3. My Son: Having a child has, in part, helped me see my life in a new way. Watching Truman accomplish certain rites of passage in his life remind me of my childhood. Whenever he accomplishes something, I can't help but smile. It's also scary, in a good way, how much he is just like me. I have mentioned in previous blogs about what Truman and I went through in my marriage to his father. If Truman wasn't in my life when all of that was going on, who knows where I would be today... or if I would even be alive?? I am happy to be his mother and cannot wait to be there for him in the future, no matter what life decides to throw at us.

4. Myself: This one is the most important. I CHOOSE to be alive for all the reasons listed above, and then some. There are so many good things out there in the world that I want to experience... and that's hard to do if you are dead. I have too many things I am passionate about. I want to live life to the fullest and am driven to live until my body breaks down of old age (even when I get there, I'm still going to be determined as hell to be as active as I can, with a variety of activities). Here's hoping for a long, happy, fulfilled life!!!

Wednesday, November 24, 2010

Day 24- Make a Playlist to Someone and Explain Why You Chose All the Songs

To anyone who was recently heartbroken,

I know you are an emotional mess right now, and you have every right to be. Your friends are going to try to cheer you up, say you are better off without the person you are no longer attached to, and push you to get out in the dating world before you are ready. I would like to offer you something when you are having those moments of solitude.

Music is a great source of therapy. Finding the right songs to help you through the many phases post-breakup will make you feel better as time goes on. I have compiled a playlist just for you to enjoy, no matter how you are feeling about your ex. Some of these songs you may feel belong in a different category, which might be true. I just know that's where I would personally place them, but feel free to arrange this for your personal listening pleasure.

The "Sad" Breakup Songs:
1. Poison "Every Rose Has It's Thorns"
2. Boyz II Men "End of the Road"
3. No Doubt "Don't Speak"
4. Lady Antebellum "Need You Now"

The "Angry" Breakup Songs:
5. Kelly Clarkson "My December"
6. Limp Bizkit "Nookie"
7. Puddle of Mudd "She Hates Me"
8. Alanis Morissette "You Oughta Know"
9. Eamon "(Fuck It) I Don't Want You Back"
10. Cee Lo Green "Fuck You"

The "I Have No Sympathy For You" Songs:
11. Carrie Underwood "Before He Cheats"
12. Justin Timberlake "Cry Me a River"
13. Bon Jovi "You Give Love a Bad Name"
14. All American Rejects "Gives You Hell"
15. Backstreet Boys "Don't Want You Back"
16. Beyonce "Irreplaceable"
17. Justin Timberlake "What Goes Around Comes Around"

The "I'm Over You and Moving On" Songs:
18. Pink "So What"
19. Kelly Clarkson "Since You've Been Gone"
20. Kid Rock and Sheryl Crow "Picture"
21. Christina Aguilera "Fighter"
22. Britney Spears "Stronger"

Now, I know it will take some time to get over your ex, but at least you know exactly what you need to listen to to help you out. I hope this helps give you a little bit of closure, maybe even introduce you to a few new songs. Oh, and if you need anything (a hug, more song suggestions, a place where you can go to break stuff), please don't hesitate to ask. I am pretty resourceful.

Take care of yourself,

Casey Leigh  :^D

Tuesday, November 23, 2010

Day 23- Something You Wish You Had Done with Your Life

Having just turned 27 a few days ago, I've been reflecting on what I've done with my life. There are so many things that I thought I would have done by now: graduated college, started my adult career, and be a homeowner. Those things I can still do, and plan to, but there is something that I should have done years ago.

I wish that I would have taken a year off between high school and college.

You see, my first year of college was dismal. I was burned out from high school and I wasn't putting in the effort. I failed a few classes and was close to failing others. I prioritized social activities over everything else, especially my first semester. Being in St. Louis on my own was extremely exciting; I couldn't help but getting out to Cardinals games, Union Station, and the unforgettable Halloween Masquerade party inside one of the haunted houses. Then, when I came back home to KC, I was hanging out with my friends. I actually did better that semester, but I should have made the effort since I was paying them for my education.

If I had taken that year off, I would have done a couple things. First, I would have spent a half year working at a job and saving most of the money in a bank account. Then, I would have planned out an amazing vacation where I would have traveled to several places. I would have either stayed in the United States and visited all the major cities that I wanted to go to or I would have flown over to Europe and traveled through many countries. Just writing about this makes me want to do this now, but since I have a kid to take care of, I would probably only be able to do a vacation for a week (maybe two if I am lucky).

I think taking that year off would have significantly changed my attitude toward college and improved my grades. I may even already be a college graduate by now. It's a good thing that I'm still young and extremely goal-oriented so I can get back on track. Then, I could celebrate that with the big vacation I should have taken 8 years ago.

Monday, November 22, 2010

Day 22- Something You Wish You Hadn't Done in Your Life

When I graduated high school and picked up my diploma (after the awesome graduation party), I remember that we received several other documents, including a Consumer Fraud pamphlet from Jay Nixon. I kept it, but never read it. This was highly stupid of me.

About 18 months after I graduated, I was dating Brian and somehow he convinced me that we should go to a few auto dealerships and try to take a loan out for a vehicle for me. First, it was for a red Mustang. Denied. Then to the local Dodge dealership for a 2003 Neon. We spent FIVE hours waiting to hear that we were approved, and it was through second chance financing. The following week, after my Dad intervenes and gets the loan moved over to our credit union (and with a significantly lower interest rate), I find out that my credit had been run by 13 different banks before it was approved.

That's only the beginning. After the car, Brian and I got a Best Buy credit card, which came with a MasterCard. I realized that we could get lots of cool stuff and make payments. So then I had an Old Navy card, and then my Visa (which I had since high school but never used) made it's way to becoming maxed out. Then a loan from my bank for deposits for an apartment for him and I. It only took a couple months for me to realize that there was no way I could make all the minimum payments, plus the car payment, and other expenses with our incomes combined.

I had put myself into credit card debt. I say myself because it was my credit that was run for everything; Brian's credit was already bad. So who's responsible for paying of the debt? Me. However, when going through the divorce, it was stated that Brian was to assume responsibility for all debt occurred during our 4 1/2 year relationship. Of course, Brian hasn't done anything about it. But, with the wonderful returns I have been getting when filing taxes, I have been paying off those debts. I only have the Best Buy credit card left to pay off before I am debt free. However, my credit still sucks.

Now I wish that I had read that pamphlet from high school and I would have asked my Dad about credit cards before I got into that cluster fuck of a mess. I could actually have money saved up toward a new car or something with all the money I've had to invest in to keep myself out of financial trouble. If I could give anyone advice about debt... the more you know about how to prevent it, the better off you will be for the rest of your life.

Sunday, November 21, 2010

Day 21- Your Best Friend is In a Car Accident. You Two Got in a Fight the Hour Before. What Do You Do?

Let me paint you a mental picture...

Brandon and I are chatting online, as usual (we would be hanging out in person if we didn't live 5 hours away from each other). Let's say we are talking about dating and relationships and he says he wants to tell me he wants to take another chance with a female. I remind him about what happened with said female in the past and hope he knows what he wants to do. Then, he reluctantly says that he already did something. I get mad, yell at him and tell him that he's going down the same road again. Then I see he logs off. I assume he just wants to let off some steam since our conversation turned hostile.

An hour goes by and I get a phone call from an Arkansas area code. Hmm... he's not calling from his cell. Nope, it's not Brandon. It's his mom telling me that he was in a car accident and that Brandon is in the hospital.


I tell her to tell Brandon that I am headed down there as soon as possible. I talk to my parents and tell them that I need to go and will make it back in a day, maybe two. So I make the drive down to see him. I stay with him in the hospital and only leave his side when I need to get something to eat. I completely forget about the fight... all I care about is that he's going to be fine and that he has me to be there for him, because that's what best friends do!

Saturday, November 20, 2010

Bring on the Thanksgiving Traditions... Pop Culture Style

Oh, Thanksgiving... the holiday that gathers family together to stuff their faces with home cooked food... also the holiday that lives in Christmas's shadow. With all the Christmas hoopla out there, Thanksgiving doesn't stand a chance to get the exposure that it deserves. I have decided to come up with a list of television shows that help promote this holiday, all in their own unique ways. For your reading (and viewing) pleasure... here are my favorite Thanksgiving moments.

Adam Sandler's Thanksgiving Song

As much as I enjoy his Hanukkah songs, I was very pleased with his take on Turkey Day. The song always puts a smile on my face and makes me laugh. If you find yourself in a situation this Thanksgiving where you are in the middle of family bickering, run to the nearest CD player/DVD player/Mp3 player and blast this song. It will change the mood significantly!

A Charlie Brown Thanksgiving

When I was about 6 or 7, I dreamed that I would have a Thanksgiving dinner like this: with my friends, with a unique assortment of food, and eating on a ping pong table. I would go for eating outdoors, but being a resident of the Midwest, it's generally cold on Turkey Day. I can save myself  from getting sick by staying indoors.

Friends- Thanksgiving Episodes

Friends had so many great Thanksgiving Episodes. I would like to post clips from all of them, but since a lot of the clips are restricted from embedding I have to make do with what I can. My absolute favorite Thanksgiving scene is when everyone is at Monica and Chandler's apartment, with Monica and Ross' parents, and the dinner leads to a huge revelation of information, like how Rachel wasn't supposed to put meat in the trifle, and Monica and Chandler were living together. After the burst out, Mrs. Gellar replies with "That's a lot of information to get in 30 seconds." Moments like that on the show were always a favorite to me (which I will blog about my favorite moments/episodes from Friends someday soon).

Roseanne- Thanksgiving episodes

Roseanne was big with scenes at the dinner table. I always thought that was very cool that no matter what happened to them on a day to day basis, they would all make a point to sit together at mealtime. The Thanksgiving dinners were never a disappointment, especially with the clip that I posted. Revealing lifestyle choices have seem to become a new found Thanksgiving tradition, and this episode honed in on that. I don't think Roseanne could have responded any better than she did to her mother.

Grey's Anatomy Thanksgiving Episodes

Treating Thanksgiving dinner like a surgical procedure... EPIC!!! I loved the chaotic feel to this episode: Izzie and Burke cooking for everyone, but not knowing who will all show up, Christina's restlessness that drives her back to working at the hospital, and how, in the end, basically everyone shows up to enjoy the meal. It just goes to show that even the busiest of professions can still find time to get together and celebrate the holiday.

Now that you're read/watched this... you are craving turkey, aren't you??? I know I am!!!

Day 20- Your Views on Drugs and Alcohol

I remember doing the D.A.R.E. program in elementary school and junior high. I was proud to wear my black t-shirt and participate in all the activities to promote against using drugs and alcohol. Oh, how times have changed.... LOL

No, I'm not a druggie or a boozer. I'm just a human being that has, through self-education and personal experience, have made proper judgements toward using drugs and alcohol. As much of an experimental person that I am, I do have my limits... and those limits are definitely in the drug category.

I'll admit it, I am a fan. Domestic beers, mixed fruity drinks, malt liquors, wine, and hard liquors... I have my favorites in all of those categories. Most of the time, I drink when in social situations, but there is the occasional time where I order a drink or two with dinner or just have a glass of wine while sitting out on the back deck enjoying the weather. I do not drink to get drunk. To me that's just not appealing. However, if I am playing drinking games and it involves hard liquor, I either stop and switch to water or decide not to drive home. As long as people know what their limit is and they don't try to drive or something else while under the influence that could get themselves hurt or killed, then I don't see anything wrong with it. It would also be a little hypocritical of me to work at a bar and grille if I thought alcohol was the worst thing in the world.

I've always been curious to trying marijuana, and I've done it a few times (and pretty recently, but I don't necessarily want to admit the details on that, lol). I've hit off a bong and I've smoked blunts (and yes, I inhaled... no Bill Clinton syndrome here). I know how it feels to be high off of marijuana. I also remember learning in D.A.R.E. that marijuana is the "gateway" drug that leads you to trying others. Yea, that's bullshit. I also have been educating myself on the legalization of marijuana (which I fully support). I see how it helps out people with medical ailments, especially to cancer patients who have little to no appetite. Oh, and smoking weed is a HELL of a lot healthier than smoking cigarettes (and there are no addictive substances).

Cocaine/Crack: My only interest in this is watching the movie Blow.

Heroin: I can't think of this without referring to the scene in Pulp Fiction where she mistakes it for cocaine. Other than the enjoyment of watching this in the movie, I am not interested.

Meth: I've had a couple close friends use it. They had some interesting stories... and I'm definitely not interested in trying it.

Shrooms: Not Interested, but I had a friend use them occasionally in college.

PCP: Not Interested

Acid: Not Interested

LSD: Not Interested

Ecstacy: This one I am on the fence about. It might be fun to try, but I don't think I ever will *Shrugs*

Caffeine: My body is a little dependent on it from time to time.... and I don't feel guilty at all because it's LEGAL!!!!

Other Drugs That I Can't Think of: Not Interested

So, there's my views on drugs and alcohol. I told you I wasn't a druggie or alcohol abuser!!!   :-P


Is chocolate a drug??? That one can be a problem for me, hehe....

Friday, November 19, 2010

Day 19- What Do You Think of Religion? or Politics?

I'm not going to talk about religion. I already did that, remember??? If you didn't, here's the link.

*rubs hands together*

This is all about politics! Funny how I have blogged about the two subjects that are considered no-no's in social situations. What can I say??? I love the controversy! I consider myself a Moderate, leaning toward the Liberal side. No, I don't have mixed feelings on issues, I just happen to have viewpoints that fall on both ends of the political spectrum.

When I was 20, I took an American National Politics class at Longview. One of the activities we did was to take a test to see where we stood politically. It asked all kinds of questions, from viewpoints on the death penalty, taxes, gun control, and abortion, among others. After tallying up the results, I noticed I had an even number of conservative and liberal answers. So I was literally a moderate.

Since I took that class (and received an A... go me!), I have been a lot more active in educating myself on issues. Some of the issues that really peaked my interest include the legalization of marijuana, Proposition 8 (gay marriage in California), and Senate Bill 586 (Missouri Strip Club Laws). I found myself spending hours researching them on the Internet and thinking about how they would affect businesses, people, and the economy.

The one I was most passionate about was Senate Bill 586. Matt Bartle (R) decided to present a bill that placed a lot of limits to the adult entertainment industry. It passed this summer, and has greatly impacted the industry... and not in a good way. I don't mind the fact that such businesses are not allowed to be within 1,000 feet of certain businesses, like schools and residential areas. What bothers me is the fact that those facilities can no longer have alcohol, the dancers in the strip clubs cannot strip down any less than wearing a bikini, and that some businesses are losing a lot of money due to the fact that they have to be closed by midnight. This is virtually killing off a lot of business in the state. I predict that all of the bordering states of Missouri (and yes there's 8 of them) will profit off this. We will see a lot of residents crossing state lines to be entertained from time to time. Needless to say, I do not support this law at all. I'm keeping an eye on it because there are already lawsuits from strip club owners and employees.

I personally believe that everyone should attempt to get involved in politics. I'm not saying to the extreme, but just enough that you understand what issues are affecting your community, your state, and nationally. There's nothing wrong with that... you just may learn new things and prevent yourself from doing something that may cost you later. Knowledge is power, people! Educate yourself!!!

Happy Birthday!

On November 19, 1983, at 8:57 am... a little girl was born, weighing 6 pounds, 8 ounces.

27 years later... and a lifetime's amount of trials, tribulations and excitement... I am here today and ready to have a great birthday!

I must give a shout out to others who share my birthday.... Nancy Caldwell, Leslie Sanford, Bruce Stimpson, and Elizabeth Robertson. Also, celebrities... Meg Ryan, Jodi Foster, Calvin Klein, and former Chiefs player Larry Johnson.

And now.... birthday songs!!!

Yes, I had to be a dork, didn't I??? LOL

Thursday, November 18, 2010

Day 18- Your Views on Gay Marriage

"Marriage is a social union or legal contract between people that creates kinship. It is an institution in which interpersonal relationships, usually intimate and sexual, are acknowledged in a variety of ways, depending on the culture or subculture in which it is found. Such a union, often formalized via a wedding ceremony, may also be called matrimony." -wikipedia.org

Marriage is a beautiful thing. It is also something that is regulated by the government. The government prevents bigamy and multiple marriages from legally happening. It keeps records in city and state offices. It also regulates individuals under 18 to gain permission from a parent or legal guardian before they are allowed to marry. But, they do not recognize gay marriage. I see that as a problem in our society.

I am 100% supportive of gay marriage. When it comes down to it, I don't see why gender has to be a factor when wanting to get married. It's not like the gay community is another species... we are all human beings and are capable of falling in love. It's like the government wants to pick and choose what the gay community can and cannot do. Can they adopt a child? Yes. Can they get same-sex benefits at many employers across the country? Yes. Can they marry? No.

I'm sorry, but that's fucked up.

This is a major reason why I have been following Proposition 8 in California, especially since the Supreme Court declared the ban on same sex marriages unconstitutional back in August. With the election results from a couple weeks ago, the California voters have elected (or re-elected) officials that are in support of Proposition 8 (even though most of the country voted Republican). I am glad to see that the people have continued to show their support with gay marriage.

A few weeks ago, one of my good friends posted a couple videos from http://www.funnyordie.com/ onto my facebook. I came across one called Prop 8: The Musical...

This was an extremely entertaining and smart video. I applaud Funny or Die for taking the time to create this, and I loved how many celebrities got involved. I hope that this helped many people realize that gay marriage isn't a bad thing. It's just a simple concept about love. I wish that more political issues could be expressed this way... more individuals my age would probably be more involved in politics then.

I'm going to keep an eye on Proposition 8 and how the Supreme Court will handle things in the coming weeks. Then I hope to see in future elections (hopefully as early as the next Presidential election) that more states will propose same-sex marriages. Oh, and that I will be able to attend a gay wedding someday soon!

Wednesday, November 17, 2010

Day 17-A Book You've Read That Changed Your Views on Something

When I was in high school, I noticed some of my friends were getting really into this book series, even forming get togethers to discuss the awesomeness of these books. Then, I was at a guy friend's house, where he decided to pop in the movie based on the first book. I just rolled my eyes thinking this is just kid's stuff... I'm not going to get wrapped up in this trend.

So then I'm in my first semester of college, in awesome St. Louis. I'm noticing news stories where religious groups are burning the books because of their satanic beliefs. I have professors discussing the books in class, and raving about how excellent they are (and I was going to a Catholic-based university). Hmm... these books have sparked controversy and are becoming more and more popular. I thought that maybe I wrote off these books too soon and consider giving them a chance.

In early October 2002, I'm walking around Target and decide to buy the first two books. They were inexpensive and I thought that if I didn't like them, I could just return them. I head back to my dorm room, with some Halloween shaped mini frosted cookies, and start the first chapter. A few chapters later, I knew that this was the beginning of a wonderful journey (and returned to Target the next evening to buy the other two books that were published).

I had finally become a fan of the Harry Potter books.

It's funny how something I thought was ridiculous at 17 turned out to become my favorite book series of all time. Sometimes unexpected sources will make you rethink your views on something... and work wonders. I also learned how society, especially hardcore Christians, judged these books before they read them. There are no satanic beliefs, the characters celebrate Christmas and Easter! They aren't promoting witchcraft, they are just people who have wizarding talents in their DNA. I recalled at the end of my semester in St. Louis, discussing with my Great Aunt that the books are not bad. I recommended that they are ideal for older children, and individuals my age.

I am happy to say that I own all seven books (in hardback) and with the exception of the first film, have seen all the movies in theaters (most of them at the midnight showings). With that said, I am looking forward to this weekend, since part one of Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows will be in theaters (actually, on my birthday). I'm going to try to go to the midnight showing, if there are any tickets left! If not, sometime during the day Friday. I can picture it now... and am really excited to see how well they do with the final book!!!

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

Day 16- Someone or Something You Definately Could Live Without

Allergies suck.

Once, sometimes twice a year, I have to deal with seasonal allergies. Most of my allergies come from pollen and dander, so I try to avoid the outdoors for a couple weeks in the Spring, and sometimes a week in the Fall. Sometimes it feels like I just have a cold, but other times, it can make me feel completely miserable.

When I was little, I had some extreme cases of allergy attacks. I remember rubbing my eyes to the point where the bags under my eyes got so swollen that I could barely see, or my eyes would be so dry that it was difficult to blink. I used to have nosebleeds that lasted for a half-hour or more. It got pretty annoying having to hold tissue while pinching your nose for that long, not to mention how red my nose would be afterwards. My body would randomly breakout with hives... and had to take those weird oatmeal type baths to get rid of them. I had to deal with these ailments until my family and I moved to Lee's Summit.

I don't know if it was because we were living in a brand new house or if I was just growing out of it, but my allergies got significantly better. The nosebleeds virtually disappeared. I was not dependent on allergy medications. It was a huge sigh of relief to be able to spend more time outdoors.

My allergies remain pretty mild to this day. However, I do keep my own personal stash of Claritin just in case I need to use them. It's still annoying having a runny nose or dealing with itchy eyes, but I deal with it like every other allergy sufferer out there. But, if there was a way for me to live without allergies, I would take advantage of it in a heartbeat! Here's to wishful thinking...

Monday, November 15, 2010

Day 15- Something or Someone You Couldn't Live Without, Because You've Tried Living Without It

We all go though many things in life, causing some sacrifices to get you through the days. I've been able to make some decisions in the past where I could live without things, mostly in the entertainment route or having the ability to make materialistic purchases. However, something that I gave up for a while made me realize how much I relied on it and needed once it was gone... a social life.

When I was 19, I was going to college and I had a part time job. I had plenty of time to gather with friends. Some of us would go to Orlando's to dance each weekend (since it was one of few bars where you could get in at 18). Other times, I would meet up with people at the drive-in, or any of the many restaurants around town. It was fun, carefree, and you never know where you would end up next. I absolutely loved those days and took in every moment.

I miss those days a lot.

I touched on my inactive social life a little bit on my Sacrifices blog. Spending more than half of your waking hours each week to take care of an ailing grandparent, then spending the rest of the week at home doing normal household activities really makes a social life non existent. I'm not saying that if I were able to go back in time and change that, I would. I actually would leave things as they were, since I was able to be there for my family.. through the good and stressful moments. Plus, when I was married to Brian, he would get out and socialize, leaving me at home with Truman, or I would be at work.

It can really mess with your head when you aren't able to spend time with friends. I'm surprised I was able to deal with it so well. Then again, there is this website called Facebook... lol. However, I do have a good ending to what I've noticed is a little bit of a sob story.

Four months ago, my social life came back... with a vengeance!!! It started with my first time going to The Rocky Horror Picture Show. After that.... meeting with the girls at several different bars/clubs in the city, going to the movies, bachelorette parties, my sister's wedding, bonfires, hanging out at friend's houses (watching movies, drinking beer, telling stories), and more!!! It feels awesome being able to spend time with my friends again, plus getting to know new ones better. It's amazing how much you really missed having the ability to get out and socialize when it's been close to nonexistent for a long time.

*Grabs social life..... doesn't want to let go.

Sunday, November 14, 2010

Day 14: A Hero That Has Let You Down

I really don't have a hero that has let me down, so I am going to change this one up a little bit!!! To all comic book geeks/lovers out there, I dedicate this blog to you!

Dear Batman,

You have been widely admired by the masses. In my lifetime, there have been six live-action films, one pretty awesome afternoon television show, and lots of rides named after you and your enemies in Six Flags theme parks (among many other things). Even though you are very popular, I have a major grievance with you as a superhero, and it sorely disappoints me because I am a fan.

When I think of superheroes, I expect for he/she to be born with some extraordinary skill or talent or that something happened to them that caused them to gain those things. Think about it. The X-Men were all born with their talents, same thing with the superheroes in The Incredibles. Superman was born on a different planet where they all had extraordinary talents compared to us on Earth. Spiderman exists because Peter Parker was bitten by a radioactive spider. The Hulk was a result of genetic mutation. You don't apply to any of these.

Now, I do give you credit for dealing with the murder of your parents in your youth (sorry that happened to you, by the way), causing you to seek vengeance against those who did that. That also happened to Matthew Murdock (aka. Daredevil) and Peter Parker. Vengeance is huge in the comic book world... and it also drives you guys to continue to capture criminals after your initial hunt.

Most superheroes have mediocre or poor jobs, causing them to deal with their crime solving without financial assistance. As Bruce Wayne, you are a very successful businessman. This allows you to be able to afford all the wonderful gadgets and vehicles you rely on to fight crime. If you were not born into the family, or the industry, you would probably have never been able to become Batman in the first place. You would just be a normal, average person that would have spent the rest of your life wanting to seek revenge for your parent's murders. Or, you would have found the right people, killed them, and would be serving a lifetime sentence. Either way... money doesn't buy happiness, for you it just adds fuel to the fire.

I'm sorry I had to blow up your ego like that, but it had to be said. I just cant take you seriously as a superhero. It's bad when I consider Mermaid Man and Barnacle Boy better superheroes than you, since they have natural abilities unlike yourself. I mean, if you can live with that fact, then good for you! Just know that you won't be able to convince me that you are the best superhero out there. Sorry.

Good luck with teaming up with Robin and Batgirl,

Casey Leigh

Saturday, November 13, 2010


We all have them. Movies that have so many good lines that, between yourself and a few friends, can basically sum up the entire story. A lot of these quotable movies are comedies, but there is the occasional drama or cult film that works its way into the list. I have several movies, comedies and others, that I quote more than some of my absolute favorite films. Please enjoy these movies and the lines that I just love to quote!!!

The Hangover

"You just nailed the baby!" "Are my glasses okay?"
"They gave out rings during the Holocaust?"

"Not at the table, Carlos."
"When I woke up on the roof, I found $80,000 of Bellagio chips in my pocket. Looks like we're going home with some money, boys!"
"Hey! There's Skittles in there!!!"

Pulp Fiction

"In the fifth, my ass goes down."
"That's a pretty fucking good milkshake. I don't know if it's worth five dollars but it's pretty fucking good."
"I'll be there in three shakes of a lamb's tail."
"Oh man. I shot Marvin in the face."

Office Space

"I could set the building on fire."
"I have eight different bosses right now."
"PC Load Letter"? What the fuck does that mean?"
"I can't believe what a bunch of nerds we are. We're looking up "money laundering" in a dictionary."


"There are few things in this world more unsettling than going in the back to grab some condiments and end up staring at a huge, steaming pile of cock."
"Yeah and take anything that he gives you with a shot of penicillin."

"Ma'am, I don't doubt the steak was over-cooked, but did you have to eat it all before you complained about it?"
"You know, we should probably feel guilty, but she broke the cardinal rule. Don't fuck with people that handle your food."

Forrest Gump

"Dear God, make me a bird. So I could fly far. Far far away from here."
"Mama always said, dying was a part of life. I sure wish it wasn't."
"Stupid is as stupid does."
"That's all I have to say about that."

Napoleon Dynamite

"She said she doesn't want you here when she gets back because you've been ruining everybody's lives and eating all our steak!"
"Vote for me, and all your wildest dreams will come true."
"Napoleon, give me some of your tots."

Dumb and Dumber

"Just when I thought you couldn't possibly be any dumber, you go and do something like this... and totally redeem yourself!"
"We got no food, no jobs... our PETS' HEADS ARE FALLING OFF!"

"They're driving an '84... Sheepdog."
"That's as good as money, sir. Those are I.O.U.'s"

Talladega Nights: The Ballad of Ricky Bobby

"Someone didn't love you enough when you were little, did they?"
"Hi, I'm Ricky Bobby. If you don't chew Big Red, then fuck you."
"If you ain't first, you're last."

Boondock Saints

"Fuck ass!!!"
"Now, you Irish cops are perking up. That's two sound theories in one day, neither of which deal with abnormally sized men. Kind of makes me feel like Riverdancing."
"I ain't getting him no fucking bagel."

Clerks II

"I left the coffee pot on again, didn't I?"
"Say what you will about Jesus, but leave the "Rings" out of this."
"How the fuck do you always have like two good-looking girls who want you?"
"Sometimes, in the heat of the moment, it's forgivable to go ass to mouth."

And... to finish off my quotable blog.... I have this video of 100 Best Movie Lines in 200 Seconds!

Day 13: A Band or Artist that has Gotten You Through Some Tough-Ass Days

Dear David Cook,

I have been a fan of yours since I watched your audition on American Idol. Your voice was captivating and I was excited to watch you move forward each week and perform some amazing songs! I was a fan of the show before your season, but having a Kansas City connection made things a lot more exciting! I was there at Blue Springs High school during your Homecoming and watched the mayor give you a key to the city. When Ryan Seacrest called your name as the winner, I was so happy for you that I started to cry. It was very cool to walk around town and see David Cook t-shirts everywhere. But, with all your achievements in landing your dream job, you also helped me.

At the time that you were on the show, I was in the middle of going through a divorce. The man I was married to was verbally and physically abusive, and he put me in a very dark place. I'm normally have a very positive, outgoing personality and some of that had disappeared. Somehow, watching you on the show each week gave me something to look forward to, and eventually brought me out of the darkness. Since then, I am back to being the happy, outgoing girl that everyone loved about me. I have continued to follow your career and have seen you in concert four times.

My son became a fan of you, just by watching American Idol with me. One day in late 2008, I was walking around Blockbuster when I realized that your brother, Andrew, was in the store. He ended up behind my son, my sister, and I at the checkout line. My son starts talking to him (like he did with a lot of people at that age, he's a very friendly kid) and starts bringing up that he just saw David Cook and David Archuleta on the Teen Choice Awards earlier that evening. I burst out half-laughing, half in shock that my kid would talk about that, of all things, to Andrew. Your brother was very cool about it, he replied to my son "Well, did you know that David Cook is my brother?" Ever since then, my son sporadically talks about meeting David Cook's brother at Blockbuster.

I am proud to be a fan of yours. I loved your first album and am anxiously awaiting to hear you second one, whenever it comes out. I know you have been working hard and hope to be as entertained with it as the last one!
Thank you for being you.

Always a fan,

Casey Leigh    :-)

Friday, November 12, 2010

Day 12- Something You Never Get Compliments On

I don't know exactly how this started, but a lot of my friends (especially my guy friends) come to me for advice. Maybe it's because I am a good listener, or that I think from a logical, not emotional standpoint. Either way, I like it. Most of the advice that people ask me for is about relationships. I've helped guys think of creative places for dates, if a girl is playing games with them, and if the girl is losing interest. But, I also have been asked about financial solutions for various things or about friendship issues.

However, I don't seem to get complimented on it very much.

I'd like to assume that I am good at giving advice, since the same 5-6 people keep coming to me to talk about stuff, plus others at random. I mean, I keep the discussions between me and that person (that to me shows that I am trusting), I listen to what they have to say, and I ask questions to get a better picture of the situation before I start to offer them solutions. When someone posts on Facebook about issues, I try to offer them solutions too. I'm not saying I'm an expert on such things, but I don't receive any uncomfortable or angry responses. I also have been told by one person that I should try to pursue some sort of consultant-type of job where I can just give random advice to people. I don't even know where I would start if I seriously considered going that route.

Anyways, I guess I would just like to have some reassurance that I am great at giving advice. Everyone can benefit from hearing more "thank yous" each day :-)

Thursday, November 11, 2010

Day 11- Something People Seem to Compliment You the Most On

For anyone that's ever met me, they will immediately realize my happy, optimistic personality. I was nicknamed "Sunshine" by a few friends in junior high because of it. I am proud to have that nickname, so much that when it was time to order Senior Girl's jerseys, I didn't hesitate to put "Sunshine" on the back of mine. A lot of people love that about me, but there is something else that I get complimented on more... that I am extremely kind-hearted.

I don't know if it's how I was raised, but I'm one of those people that will always treat people with kindness, even if I shouldn't. My best friend Brandon has pointed out that he "envies" my "giant heart sometimes." He's also said that he doesn't understand how I don't hold grudges. I just don't. I would rather not spend countless hours ranting over someone or something that someone did to deceive me. I like to see people for the good in them, even if they are not known for that... one reason why I fought to make my marriage work for so long.

Some people do try to take advantage of the fact that I am kind-hearted, which may seem like that's a flaw that I have. But I don't see it that way. I am smart enough to know when people are using me.. and then they don't get away with it anymore. For example, I will offer someone at work to get a drink for them. Then, if they assume they I will do that for them every time, without asking, then I stop. Yea, that's just a small example, but when things like that happen more than I'd like them to, it gets to be a burden.

My kind-heartedness has been acknowledged in my professional life, which surprised me. When I was working at Home Depot, I was having my first annual review. My boss gave me extremely high remarks for "respecting people of all races and backgrounds." When I discussed that with her, I remembered asking "Well, isn't that pretty normal for people to do that?" She replied that it wasn't (and I knew she was telling the truth... she is gay and has had to deal with some very critical people, which to me make me sad for humanity in general). That just blew my mind... just for the simple fact that I am considered a rarity when it comes to acting kind to others.

I'll never stop being a kind-hearted person. It keeps me in a consistently good mood, I don't dwell on little dramas in life, and when it comes down to highly stressful situations, I can handle them better than others. More people need to embrace this... all it does it benefit yourself and others.

Wednesday, November 10, 2010

Day 10- Someone You Need to Let Go, or Wish You Didn't Know

I'm not exactly comfortable blogging about this subject. I know I am going to get a lot of questions from my friends about the person in this blog. A very select few will know who it is, and some may be able to figure it out. But this is a blog challenge, so I'm going to go for it and speak about what's really on my mind.

I have a friend, who I would say is somewhat close to me (I know she believes we are closer friends than I do). I am going to refer to this friend as "Female X." I have known Female X for more than 10 years. My first impression of her was not good from the start, and I never really forgot that.

Female X is what I consider a toxic bachelorette. She goes through guys faster than anyone else I know. She gets emotionally and sexually attached very quickly. When I mean quickly, I mean within a week or two, which sometimes is how long the dating/relationship lasts. So my other friends and I have had to deal with countless occurrences where she felt heartbroken and we would have to cheer her up and encourage her that the right man is out there somewhere.

Going out with Female X socially is an adventure, to say the least. All she wants to do is guy hunt or invite guys that she likes to hang out with us. She seems to be the type of person that NEEDS to have a guy in her life to make things worthwhile. I personally don't recall a time where she just stopped and took time for herself. She is in desperate need of time to herself (by choice, not by default) so she can work on some self discovery. If she doesn't do this, she will never be able to know what she truly wants in her personal and romantic life.

The personal drama that Female X creates in her life is exhausting. That's why I feel that if I just let her out of my life, I would have better peace of mind. Just the simple fact of her being a toxic bachelorette bugs me, since if I am ever out with her, people could associate her with me. I don't need that kind of association in my life.

So, to Female X.... if you don't get yourself together and work on some self-discovery, you are going to lose me as a friend. I've dealt with your dramas long enough and if I have to sever ties with you, I won't regret it. Good luck.

Tuesday, November 9, 2010

Day 9- Someone You Didn't Want to Let Go, But Just Drifted

When I was 12, I moved from Grandview to Lee's Summit. Even though the move was only 4.5 miles away, it was a big enough of a change for me to lose touch will all my friends from elementary school. Yes, a few of them also moved to Lee's Summit, which was exciting, but there's a few of them that I had wished I hadn't lost touch with. Facebook has helped me reconnect with essentially everyone, except for one person that I've been trying to find for over a year.

Greg DeVore and I first met in preschool; he and I were in the same class, with a few others that would go with us to Meadowmere Elementary. Around 4th grade, Greg and I really became good friends. We sat next to each other in class, we borrowed each others books, played together during recess, and hung out at each other's houses (which were only a couple streets away from each other). I remember the first time that Greg came over, I was nervous in that "I have a crush on you" kind of way (even though back then I wasn't 100% sure that's what I was feeling). We had a blast, and I remember walking with him down the street when he had to go home.

In 5th and 6th grade, Greg and I had different teachers so we didn't hang out as much. Then there was the fact that my parents decided to move out of Grandview. So, needless to say, we lost touch with each other.

When I was in high school, I found out that Greg's mom (who used to work with my mom for years) had left their family. I felt completely heartbroken. Not long after, I found his phone number and called him. We didn't talk much, since he had friends over, but I wished we would have kept in contact. He was one of those guys that if I didn't move out of Grandview, it would have been very likely that Greg would have been my first boyfriend.

I'm still going to look for him... and maybe someday I will track him down. I'd just like to know what he's been up to and catch up. So if anyone that reads this that has any connections to Greg... please share!!!

My "List"... And No, It's Not Laminated!!!

Remember this episode from Friends (The One with Frank Jr.)???

Now that I've refreshed your memory with the infamous List... I would like to share who is on mine. I couldn't think of it as quickly as Rachel did with hers, so consider me like Ross on that part. Like it says on the title of this blog... I'm not that much of a geek to laminate mine!

#5- Devon Sawa

I fell for Devon Sawa when I saw the movie Casper for the first time. He was sooo cute and had baby cheeks. Then, in the sixth grade, my friends and I were at a book convention at CMSU (now UCM) and we met Ivy Ruckman, writer of Night of the Twisters. She had worked with Devon since he was in the TV movie based on her book. We were all ecstatic to hear stories about him! Fast forward a few years and I'm still crushing on Devon, but this time it's because of the movie The Final Destination and Eminem's music video for "Stan." He lost the baby cheeks but was still very attractive. He hasn't done much recently (that I've noticed), but if I hear of a movie he's in... be assured that I will see it. :-D

#4- Usher

I just look at that pic and think... Yummy! Usher is a very talented man.. and not just for his music. When I was in high school, I came across a movie called Light It Up. It's about a group of high school teens who end up taking the school's security guard hostage and demand (through the Internet) that they hire their favorite teacher back and improve the conditions of their urban school. Usher is one of the main characters (next to Rosario Dawson) and it proved, to me, that he has longevity in his public lifestyle. Oh, and Usher is a father... and being a parent myself, this makes him even more attractive. As for his music.... any man that can get me on the dance floor is just fine with me!

#3- Adam Lambert

Yes, I am fully aware that he's gay. I don't care, this is my fantasy!!! Besides, he's admitted that if he's tipsy or drunk, he has been known to make out with girls... soooo there's a chance, lol. There's just something about him that's dark and mysterious that makes the attraction very strong. I've had my imagination go wild daydreaming about him and I together (so much that I've actually had dreams with him in it, not all in a sexual manner). This is the one guy on this list that I LUST for the most, and imagining what his tongue could do to me makes me shiver... in a good way! ;-)

#2-David Cook

Oh yes, the Kansas City connection! I knew David was going to go far on Idol when I heard his audition, but I never expected he was going to win. I was so happy that I had tears running down my face. I feel I can relate to him on a pretty personal level. I mean, he and I grew up in the same area (Lee's Summit and Blue Springs are basically next door neighbors, lol), we are the same age (he is only 11 months older than me), and we both have mad love for the Royals. He's also very smart... which intelligence goes a long way with me. He's the one guy on this list that is most attainable to me, and one of these days, I will run into him somewhere here in the city. He's here all the time, visiting family, not to mention that he does own a house here. One day, David, you will meet me!

#1- Jason Segel

Oh, Jason. Dear Jason... so funny, imaginative, cute, REAL. I didn't take much notice of him in Knocked Up, but once I saw Forgetting Sarah Marshall... I fell in LOVE! Not only did his role as Peter just touch me with how realistic it was, but he also wrote the script (ah... a fellow writer and his words totally speak to me). My love for him deepened after watching I Love You Man. I also love his physical appearance, for the simple fact that he doesn't have what Hollywood considers a "perfect body." He's got a little extra meat on his bones... which shows me that he's comfortable with himself and doesn't try to fit into someone else's idea of what he "should" look like. Call me weird, but I'm more attracted to guys like that... the ones without a six pack and muscles. I also love how Jason stays in touch with his inner child... so much that he wrote the screenplay for the new Muppet film coming out next year. He is my ultimate celebrity crush and I would be the happiest girl in the world if I ever had the opportunity to meet him... anything beyond that would just be pure bliss!!!

*** Update on November 15, 2010****

Now that you know my top 5, I want to give you a short list of the men that almost made it:
-Seth Rogen
-Kevin Smith
-Timothy Olyphant
-Justin Timberlake

Yep, those guys would be nice to encounter as well ;-)

Monday, November 8, 2010

Day 8- Someone Who Made Your Life Hell, or Treated You Like Shit

I'm not going to blog about my ex-husband. Yes, shocking. I actually did that already, but only a select few were given the chance to read it. No, there is someone that made my professional life hell when I worked at The Home Depot, and I still have no idea how it happened. Her name is Marjo.

After working at Home Depot for a year and a half, I was ready to move up the company ladder. I went from a cashier to a service desk associate. When I was training, I was told by management to work with Janelle and not with Marjo. There was nothing wrong with Marjo, it was just the simple fact that Janelle was better at teaching how to do things the right way.

OK, nothing wrong with that. I was getting the hang of working at the desk and getting to know the members of my team better. Marjo and I seemed to get along just fine and we made small chat during the day. But, at some point, it had shifted. It could have been because of how I accomplished things were different than her. Or that I seemed to get stuff done quicker and ended up having a lot of free time to stand around and chat with our coworkers. I really don't know. But she seemed resentful of me.

Marjo got frustrated a lot. She would make snide comments under her breath, aiming them toward me. She would get mad because she thought she was doing all the real work at the desk and I wasn't doing a thing. She got angry at the fact that I seemed to have a better work schedule, and always seemed to get what I wanted when it came to requesting time off (which both of those were out of my control). It reached the point where the tension was felt by other coworkers, even members of management. There were a few times where my coworkers and I were called into the store manager's office to discuss what was going on with Marjo's attitude. It became frustrating at times.

The only reason why the tension/ animosity ended was because I unfortunately did something that cost me my job. If I had still been working there, I don't know how much more of the hostile environment I would have been able to handle. Then again, if I was still with the company, I may have ended up becoming the supervisor over the service desk, inevitably becoming her boss. I really cannot imagine how that would have turned out.

If, for some reason, this blog makes it to her (you never know, it could happen), I never meant for our work relationship to be hostile. I was there to do my job and make a living for my son and myself. I wasn't there to make your job harder, or less enjoyable. I just don't believe I ever did anything to you to make you dislike me so much.

Sunday, November 7, 2010

Day 7- Someone Who Has Made Your Life Worth Living For

There are some people in this world that I am happy to have in my life. They've helped me become who I am and keep a smile on my face. One person in particular has made the biggest impact, and that's pretty impressive for someone his age.

Yes, I am talking about my son Truman.

Finding out I was pregnant was one of the happiest things that I have experienced. I always wanted to become a parent, even though I didn't exactly plan to be one at the age of twenty. I hoped to have a boy, and could not stop smiling when I noticed a penis in the sonogram. Once he was born, I caught myself doing things that I said I was going to do when I was 11 years old: hold him all the time, constantly peek in on him when he was asleep, and talking to him like he was another adult (no baby talk). I never felt sleep deprived (seriously, I didn't!) and he wasn't much of a cryer (unless he was fighting sleep).

Fast forward to when Truman was 2 years old.... aka. the darkest times of our lives. I tried to protect Truman from the fights that his father and I had. Unfortunately, that didn't always happen. It scares me that witnessing some of those things could have done damage to him. But after all the fighting, Truman was there. He and I would hug each other (crying) and not want to let go. It was comforting to him and I. Once he and I moved out, I knew that Truman was going to be fine. He had my parents and my sister to help keep him the consistently happy little boy that he was raised.

Today, Truman is still a very happy little boy. Of course, like every other kid, he's going to have his moments, but he is essentially a well raised, well mannered kid. If Truman hadn't come into my life, I don't know where I would be or if I would still be alive. Truman was my light in that time of darkness and now, he's everything to me. I'm excited to see what's in store for him in the future!!!

Saturday, November 6, 2010

Day 6- Something You Hope You Never Have to Do

When you become a parent, you are in for a rude awakening. When you first meet your child, you don't realize how deeply you fall in love with them, but you do. It's inevitable. A baby instantly has someone that will protect them, guide them, even die for them. You also fear that you will have to experience some really bad things as they grow up, like broken bones or realizing that your child was kidnapped.

One thing that scares me the most about being a parent is the possibility that I may have to bury my child.

My mom's side of the family has experienced this, unfortunately. In October of 1967, my Aunt Brenda was killed in a car accident. Brenda and a male friend were driving around town (she was in the passenger front seat) when another vehicle t-boned them. My aunt was ejected out of the car and died on impact. The man driving the other vehicle had no time to react before the accident.  My Mom was 5 years old at the time and my Grandma was pregnant with my Aunt Tammy. From what I understand, it was probably the hardest thing my Grandparents ever had to go through.

I look at my son and fear that something will happen to him that will lead me to having to pick out a coffin. Could he be diagnosed with a rare form of leukemia? Will he slip on the ice and hit his head so hard that he will never wake up from a coma? Will there be a car that doesn't see him crossing the street until it's too late (this one could have happened... he has darted out in a parking lot a time or two, giving me a mini heart attack). It scares me that something unexpected could happen that would take him away from me forever.

You aren't supposed to bury your children, and I hope that I never have to do with with my son, or any other child that I might have in the future. I don't think I would handle it very well. I could see myself spending weeks in my bedroom, avoiding everybody and not going to work. I wouldn't be able to stare into his bedroom without bursting into tears. Things wouldn't be the same for me anymore.

I want my son to outlive me. I want him to grow old and happy with his life. He may only be six years old, but he's got a long life to live as far as I'm concerned.